So long and farewell!

2007-04-05T17:09:00.001+08:00

Shane's coming back today today today say yay!

Oh baby!

2007-04-04T17:40:00.000+08:00

Haven't heard from you in a whole day. I need some shane lovin'.

2007-03-31T05:27:00.000+08:00

Eunice loves shane!

2007-03-28T20:22:00.000+08:00

Shane's at work now.

So when's the next star gaze session, love? (:

<3

2007-03-19T01:31:00.000+08:00

i fuckin hate people who don't know the truth and spout nonsense about me. so a word of advice for such sneaky curs . just shut your gap if you don't know what you're saying. if it's not first hand information. then beat it. because karma will slap you back on your face . and yes i really like you. you'd know who i'm talkin about.

heartaches and denials

2007-03-09T02:54:00.000+08:00

Let him know that you know best

Cause after all you do know best

Try to slip past his defense

Without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong

The things you've told him all along

And pray to God he hears you.

10 days have passed and the pain is killing me. reminiscing on everything we've been through together. i can't give up now. not ever. i believe we'll come through one day. i miss your smile, the cheery atmosphere which you bring along with you,the retarded dances ,the cheesey blog entries you entered for me, the singing sessions we had everytime we were on the phone , do you remember? and most of all, i miss you so dearly. wish i could have you in my embrace right now. guess i was excruciatingly dumb to let you slip away from me. where did i do wrong. shane T.

2007-03-06T18:08:00.000+08:00

i shouldnt love you. but i want to. i just cant turn away .i shouldnt see you. but i cant move .i cant look away .and i don't know. how to be fine when im not. cuz i dont know how to make a feeling stop. just so you know this feeling's taking control of me and i cant help it. i wont sit around. i cant let him win now. thought you should know i tried my best to let go of you. but i dont want to .i just gotta say it all before i go. just so you know

the emptiness is killing me and i've been wondering why i've waited so long
looking back i realise it was always there just never spoken i'm waiting here

2006-10-07T01:06:00.000+08:00

why can't life be just as simple as it seems it is. why does everything always feel so wrong when you think it's right. why do people judge and fail you even though you've tried. well i guess' it's just hard pleasing what others want. and what you yourself want. well i guess big obstacles often appear in your life the time when you most didn't expect. just keep reminiscing the past. and life will never go on. i lament whatever wrong i did. life just suck for now. maybe it'll straighten out. or maybe it won't . but that doesn't matter. what matters most is that you don't feel sorry for yourself.

signing off - shane.T

2006-09-20T00:22:00.000+08:00

2006-09-14T01:51:00.000+08:00

i love ya shaneeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D

2006-07-12T13:32:00.000+08:00

i guess im meeting you later goon. hehheh.

2006-06-08T00:46:00.000+08:00

one of my drawings for O's art. damn my ideas played me out. dont know what to draw anymore.

fuck it. had a quarell with my mum earlier on today.it was a really violent one. my room now is like undescribable. perfume bottles and monuments shattered. even my altar didn't survive the disaster. guess mum's really undergoing a lot of stress. if only i could be a good son and do what she likes. i guess i'm just a fucked up son. today i learnt how to swallow my pride because many unnecessary things happen as results of pride. oh well. shit happens. thank God for music and art. if not for these. i'd be slittin my wrist or doin something dumb which i think i will regret one day or another. and of course thank God for elisha who never fails to brighten up my day. iloveyou girl. yeah, one more thing. we will be completin another new song very soon. excited to finish up the lyrics. i'm sick of doin covers by finch and senses fail already. always playin the same old songs like forever. even though i'm lovin it. hah i love my band even though we still have our hiccups here and there sometimes. and our drummer did something stupid not long ago and had his schedule tightened up so tight that he doesnt even have tiem to jam. poor guy. just hope he's fine.

here's the song lyrics to our new song [re-post]

keep my eyes open till mid-night

everything i say does not come out right

it's troublin my mind, but i can say i'm just fine

everybody looks the same

why is there any fame

bein famous isn't shit

SO STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM IT

[chorus]we try so hard to get back to where we are

it all looks as if we have gone so far

people say what they don't mean to say

for all you know we could have gone the other way

i have checked it twice so stay the fuck away

we know where we're goinsticks and stones are rollingtime passes me by[x2]

the million stars arise[x2]

look down from above can't you see i'm cursed

stop tellin me what to do!i know i'm stayin the fuck away from you

well that's all for now i guess. peace people.

and one more thing i learnt. u can NEVER please everyone
someone out there is bound to hate u .
and there's nothin you can do about it.
no matter how hard u try to reciprocate.
it will be in vain. yeap that was what mdm zaibon told me durin the PTdialogue.
the only thing you can do is prove them wrong for hatin you.
and there's the particular person i can never get myself to forgive i shall not mention who. but it has been the cause of the pain i've been feelin for the past 2 months or so.
but i do not hate the person. i hate the person's character. that's it.
and don't ever follow whatever other people say. what matters most is what you yourself think of it. always have your stand because. everyone is unique in their own ways. peace.

2006-05-24T00:16:00.000+08:00

AMIRAH's BIRTHDAY

2006-05-17T00:58:00.000+08:00

everyone say hello to gnia. the girl with 4teeth and freckles. HELLO! -.- hah. freckles are hOT! not. hah kiddin.

yes. the MYEs are finally comin to an end. hah. and chinese O's are like in 2 weeks time. fuckit. whY whY why! hah. oh yes! and i got levi'stapered jeans.hah. now that's hot! not. hah. look at my pants man. look at my pants! look at the bottom. it look so cool!. hah. and so some fag went up to gnia just now sayin. "OMG YOU ARE LIKE SO EMO!!!!" and she asked. "how do you define emo? and he replied, "YOU!" hah. u people should guess her reply. hah. typo KingzZzZzZ. -.-

2006-05-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

slackin with the guys
aww. look at his happy face. k.s (: [sorry i just couldn't get myself to delete the pic. ]
stage 2
cute little kenneth gettin mouth -fed by the saloonist. haa.
AFTER
stage1

hah. today was funn. went to do my hair with k.s. haha look at his face. awww so happy inside and outside. hahaha supposedly to study today. but didn't haha. too many distractions. hah. after that went to slack with the malay guys at the RC. hah. damn fun. tomorrow's m's day and mirrraas birthday! haha. cool shit. and dad bought mum a cake for m's day. so cute.. hah. well it was a 9/10 day today. haha. and i finally got a new phone. after donkey years of long dreadful awaitings. hah. yeah n6280. well that's about all. someone damn funny. watchin childhood wonderland movies. "wittle mermaid." hah!

2006-05-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

hah. had quite an interesting day today. had jammin at tamp 201 today. quite alright session but the equipment kinda sucked. went to town with david.karen&charmaine. haha went to walk around cine leisure and heeren. i bought a poster of RANCID's album. haha cool. oh yeah. and today while chillin outside of church. this guy i knew since young came out with like tapered pants and all. then we asked him " eh, you now turn mat rep ar? " and he replied, "nola! i punk." haha. then i asked. "you punk? you street punk at which part of s'pore?" he replied,"aiyah no where la. i not street punk." then i asked , "ok, so now you're a punk. so you are anti-government?"[and he confidently replied "ya lah!" haha [ the funniest part is comin. ] and i asked again, " hmmm, you're anti-government. but erm.. why you take sbs bus come church?" and he replied while hesitating . " aiyah, government give what then use la" haha at that point . marty and i were like grinnin to each other already. then he started goofin up stories on how he got his apparels and shoes bla bla. "my cousin give me one la. you know ar. his closet alot of shirts sia. then my pants i tapered use school money. my shoes my aunty give me one" -.- haha how goofy can a guy get. anyhooves . yeah that was it.
haha and i've got lyrics for the new song for the band already. kinda cool lyrics. so here it is.

keep my eyes open till mid-night
everything i say doesnt not come out right
it's troublin my mind, but i can say i'm just fine!
everybody looks the same
why is there any fame!
bein famous isn't shit
SO STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM IT!

[chorus]
we try so hard to get back to where we are!
it all looks as if we have gone so far!
people say what they don't mean to say
for all you know we could have gone the other way
i have checked it twice so stay the fuck away!

we know where we're goin
sticks and stones are rolling
time passes me by[x2]
the million stars arise[x2]
look down from above can't you see i'm cursed!
stop tellin me what to do!
i know i'm stayin the fuck away from you!
[sf]

some pics sary took durin jammin today. hah.

2006-05-04T19:08:00.000+08:00

my class tee is better than SEX

and so we went down to collect the class tee today after the geog paper. i gotta feelin my mid years results are gonna stink real bad. haha well i'll just hope for the best. haha just now we went to the comlab durin CME to let those pupils who havent done their project. finish them up. and so we went surfin the net into purevolume. AND REALISED THAT SOME OTHER BAND ALREADY TOOK UP THE NAME SECONDS FROM DISASTER. oh mann. i liked that name. anyhooves. i think we're gonan change the band name soon. should have a meetin or something on it. ;)

<3

2006-04-28T19:13:00.000+08:00

"bleedin through is the shit man"
And everything that you thought was fine
has turned its back into more than time,
You said to me that its all all right,
you can't find yourself today,

shane's got 19/27 for physics and 37.5/70 for chinese and he's freaking proud of it. IDIOT.
shane's a happy boyyy. eating his happy food, doing his happy things, playing his happy toy, riding his happy bus.

you, doing that thing you do,
breaking my heart into a million pieces, like u always do.
and you,
dont mean to be cruel,
you never even knew about the heartaches i've been going through.

Not that you're the one
Not to say I'm right
Not to say today
And not to say a thing tonight

2006-04-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)

I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Ohhhh
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you

as i've said, haha, green is still the rock-est.
MUAHAHA.

2006-04-19T17:33:00.000+08:00

woo. haha i haven't been updatin my blog for a pretty long time. wonder how's everyone doin. besides a little screw ups here and there in my tagboard. hah. hmm today was quite a short day. nothing really spectacular happened or any of that kind. haha but the aussy band and choir students came over to our school for some exchange prog? i dont know. not very sure. haha. oh yeah. SOME girl pinched me so so very hard till my arm had a swell. ouch. haha and YES. ELISHA got three of the aussy school's badges from three different exchange guy students. cool har? haha guess she stands out from the ordinary? ;) oh. and not excludin our school's very own pop punk band which performed at the open space at the foyer. taufik's pretty good on the drums. the rest were alright. hah. oh and an aussy girl went up to me and said. "hi cutey." woops! where did that come from.? haha nothing much. went for detention again. as always. its like a freakin chain cycle. it's like i clear detention for a day and i come late to school the very next day. -.- guess that's all for now. haha take care guys! oh yeah ! NICE BROWNIES SITI. (: to: colin , guess today wasn't your bestest day. haha the chick was aggressive.

that's all i can say hah ciao!

shane's just a bedraggled sight in the midst of the well-heeled society.

i had just been felled by a debilitating feelin inside of me. which apparantly sucks.

2006-04-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

SHANE, BEN DAN! SHA SHA FEN BU QING CHU.

More than ever,
I need to feel you.
More than ever,
I see the real you.

You are me
A worst disaster would be waking up alone
Now we're free
We're drifting out
Like all the ones we didn't know
I wait for a silent tear
I wait for things to disappear
Wait for the ground to stop moving underneath my only fear
If I lose you
I don't know.

More than ever
I need to feel you
It's all around
More than ever
I see the real you
And it surrounds

Everything, everything
We've had
Out of sight out of mind
Given that
What I see when I dream.

cheerios.

2006-03-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

oh man! common test is here! and i'm still sick for 9 long days already and it's still on going. damn it. went to study at macs today . haha . didn't really study though. i didn't know what to study. it seemed like. ... like... i knew everything already. haha. just hope so. then she came with her friends to macs too. haha. after that . sent her home. lol. long bus rides. i slept in the bus all the way. haha. yeah... imissHER .

<3

2006-03-03T09:55:00.000+08:00

hey shane darlin. (: im so bored now. in lesson. HAHA. there's bio test for me later. and shane's got stupid chinese thing. boringboring day.
though everything's been said and done. i still feel you. like im right beside you.
iwishicouldfindyou. justlikeyoufoundme.

shane's alive and kickin but just simply too lazy to blog. lazy ass. always likethat. okay. bloger's so not fair. REMOVED THE DAMN TIME THING. irritating!!!

HURHUR. now's shane's recess. MY RECESS SOON!! im going to visit. blairwitch fliles soon. hahaha. SHANE TAKE CARE.
(blairwitchfiles is so fako.) DAMNIT.

2006-02-18T22:43:00.000+08:00

haha! woo i'm so happy today. waha. it was flag day today. some tiring shit that was man. haha but fun. we went to town to do it. slacked most of the time. oh yeah. and there was this damn cute baby . damn cute. i mean DAMN. haha we went to far east to have the BRITISH TAKEAWAY with ks,ernest and myself eating the fried mars bars. les having the cheese dog with mash potato , elijah and myself having the chicken stuff. fantastic. curious personels just simply visit far east plaza B1 next to the taiwan snack shop. thats it. there's a big banner with the UK flag on it. so you wouldn't be able to miss it. yeah. after that i went to meet her after she finished her church shtuff at 5. hehe woo. boy was i a happy boy (: we walked ard in TM for awhile and then to century to take prints. yeah. most memorable pritn - taking of all. loved it (: muah muah muah! (: then we went to the airport to catch the eveing sunset. the view was breath taking. and breath taking it was that time passed like a bullet train with wings. -.- haha we had our LONGWALKS again. (: loveit hehe. ooh. and SHEkissedHIM ! (: yeah. so woo! mindBOGGLING! haha. iloveHER . i just love being by her side. (:

2006-02-16T20:20:00.000+08:00

HELLO S-H-A-N-E. big poop. MAPLEMAPLEMAPLEMAPLE.

2006-02-11T02:42:00.000+08:00

iloveHER. haha met her after school with her friends. grrr haha went tm to help my ncc junior to choose v'day's present. haha hmmm. oh yeah then we chilled at macs for a lil while? and then cindy came. haha. all day they talk about MAPLE. the most boring game in the world-.- haha it dulls your brain! and prevent you from spending time with your LOVE ones! right tutuhead? hahaha hmm. after that all her friends left for home. and silly me had to go to the library to pay a fine which i have been owing since like 6 years ago? haha after that. we walked aimlessly everywhere . haha we just kept walking. hahha. i LOVE long walks. they're so funn (: haha then soon after that. i sent her home. haha. her funny hand movements never fail to entertain me. hahahahahahahahaha TUTU! x) yada yada. that's about it i guess? haha oh yeah. and i jsut came home from biking and i like have BIG scratches on my bicep and chest after missing the feeble grind off the staircase ledge. haha. oh but whattheheck . i still cleared it in the end. woohoo. that was fun and adrenaline pumping. cool feeling. haha that's about it. and again i shall say. iloveHER haha. goodnight people reading my entry.

2006-02-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

YOYOYOYOYO. from elisha the great. :)

2006-01-21T13:56:00.000+08:00

:) shane the terribly big fat poop says that elisha the mighty wonder woman is the best. -cheers-

shane the pig woke up pretty early today to go work at east coast.dunno work what. but shane the pig will go jurong later arnd 3+ to act like a banana clown man.
shane is a piggy poop that keeps eating. he wants to grow super fat, so i can call him super-fat-poop. PIG. wants me to say that SOMEONE misses him. of course i wont say. HAHAHA. too bad. i will NOT make THE LAZY BUM happy. :)) sorry dude. hahaa.

SHANE: IM A GREAT KID. I WANNA TRY TO BE LIKE SUPERMAN. SO i will try to FLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. but i just realised i cant fly. so i dropped to the ground.. elisha the mightest told me that singapore's ground is super not-clean. so i quickly got up and started wiping my butt. i think it's super dirty, and the dirt wont gog away, so i burnt my pants. IT'S SUPER HOT. and my arse is still buring. SO I TOOK A FIRE HOSE and splashed water on my butt. IT LEFT A SUPER SUPER BLACK MARK.
- end of story. :)

message to shane : BEWARE. your com might explode seh.

2006-01-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

Don't talk to me if you've got nothing to say.
Don't look at me, i wont notice your pain.
I'll just cry it off and fake it away
All the pain inside . abused my pride.

But it's okay. i'm okay. i'll be okay anyway.

2006-01-03T21:24:00.000+08:00

after so long . you're still the one i like so dear and truely girl . 'r'

2005-11-30T01:40:00.000+08:00

I tried to be perfect . But nothing was worth it

I don't believe it makes me real

I thought it'd be easy

But no one believes me

I meant all the things I said

If you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I'm trying to let you know

That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty

My thoughts are so tempting

I don't know how it got so bad

Sometimes it's so crazy

That nothing can save me

But it's the only thing that I have

If you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I'm trying to let you know

That I'm better off on my own

On my ownI tried to be perfect

It just wasn't worth it

Nothing could ever be so wrong

It's hard to believe me

It never gets easy

I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

That I'm trying to let you know

That I'm better off on my own

pulling stunts no.1

2005-11-29T02:33:00.000+08:00

today was a fine + fun day till the goin home part. fckuin childish MATUR - ED people somemore . i went down to east coast with becks and justine to skate. had quite a lot of fun. val was there too (: she was with the rest of the s.s gals . i have blisters on my feet. damn painful .lol. what to do? new skates. haha . oh yeah. i really like the brakes jardine and meng li did just now with their salomon fsk . hah damn cool. lol. and today was [ 3 to 2 , 2 to 1 , 1 to none ] only people who pulled stunts with me today will know. hah. so after jardine knocked off from work , all of us headed to play pool . and bla bla bla. AND back to the goin home part. i was talkin to my friend at the other table in macs. and subconciously perhaps, i might've put my hand on the chair to rest it . and that table was the CABANA workers table. with ang sittin with them. then when we went off into macs to wait for my mum , the guyfriend of the girl sitting on the chair i rested my hand on was not happy with me. WHY? cuz i rested my hand on the chair the girlfriend was sitting on -.- and fcuk . it's not her chair . it's mac donald's chair . so freakin childish! can't imagine sia. and they are like 18 or above ? MATURING? then why didn't the guy tell me in my face that he was angry with me. still must wait until we left then he told ang that he not happy with me for RESTING my hand on the chair his girlfriend was sitting on . WHAT'S THE LOGIC OF THIS?! oh and then. this guy tryin to be funny. wear his polo tee wit hthe collars flipped up . tryin to pull stunt to become like eric cantona. then marcel knew that guy's gf. so.. marcel happily pranced to the gf at the mac donald's counter and talked to her. pullin stunt again? he got the girl's bf angry too.. the guy was starin at our table all the way. WHAT's THE LOGIC AGAIN? CAN'T YOUR GIRLFRIEND HAVE OTHER FRIEND WHO ARE GUYS ? farkin control freaks! how old already! still cannot think!

2005-11-26T02:29:00.000+08:00

we are what we are

what on earth am i here for?

2005-11-12T17:33:00.000+08:00

haha .i kept questioning myself today. you live to the fullest to only die in the end. ending with nothing. no more. no achievements . nothing. lol i'm crazyy. sigh. but i keep questioning myself what is life about.

i read a book today. which states " you live for God. God has a purpose for you to be born. a mission to accomplish before he takes you back. " and that thinking of sucess only for yourself will get you no where. self-centered thinking would not let you know the true meaning of life. sure , it might get you fame and wealth . but deep inside, you wouldn't be gettin the same feeling if you think of helpin others before yourself. the satisfaction and the joy is much desirable than self - centered-ness . life would be meaningful and fruitful if you think of it with a different perspective. like the trees rooted near the river will never thirst or die even during droughts or other obstacles.

though i have written my reflections above. i am still confused about life. i guess i have plenty to learn . and a long more way to go. the future awaits you. it has already been planned out by God even before you or me existed.

okay. today, i worked in my mum's gift store till about 6+ pm today. and went on to cine leisure to meet mel and sary for the ROCK SCHOOL opening gig with madd meeting us there awhile later. it was kinda boring though. it supposed to be ROCK . but then again, rock is a very general term. lol. oh yeah. we then went to the airport to pick egan's mum up. she just came back from new york. yeah.. erm. lol short and borin day though. but still convincing (:

HELLO WEE IN

2005-11-01T01:18:00.000+08:00

yay! today was awesome man! simple and fun. haha (: had a swim with russ at mel's place . damn my trunks was gay. haha RED TRUNKS. wahaha. super hero. " DON'T FEAR , TIT MAN IS HERE! " waha had dinner at BK just now. GOURMET LAMB .hahaha . it was Ghost HUnting after that! so fun. from red house to the maze to the pasir ris haunted block. wee. so fun ! haha all in all. *awesome (:

CHAPTER no. _

2005-10-29T00:33:00.000+08:00

yet another chapter in my life which had past (: well. no point lookin back and regret things you did or did not do . focus on NOW! haha and the future. there's so much more stuff installed . so don't get stuck at a certain chapter , else your book won't be done when u pass , living in regrets . forgive NOW! there's no more time! as the sentence goes > "i will not carry myself down to die , when i go to my grave , my head will be high"

i am TRYING to blog again. bored shit. haha hmm. today was our sch's annual Open house. gosh. so many things happened . haha . so many different changes which i seize to notice! don't fret my friends (: perservere . and you will get what you want. i got into soo much trouble in school once i stepped in! gosh. improper attire and undesirable language. gosh! what's my deal man . guess i gotta change . haha.

the peach barcardi was alright. not all that fantastic luh! taste like juice. haha . and YAY ! i got the job already! @ skatesports in east coast park! it's gonna be soo much fun. haha . and i saw the rgs girl which cheryl supposedly say is her best friend! who is not. so dissapointed that she was lying to me all the way about the.. simply EVERYTHING! oh well.. everyone have their reasons to do stuff. guess she just needs the attention.
i also got myself a new mesh cap! haha yay! and a famous t-shirt. went alone to buy! so sad case. haha . *ps MY CAP HAS A "!XOGLORIA" TAGGED ON IT (: awww! gloria gloria. haha . you know i love you x)

...

2005-06-04T09:19:00.000+08:00

ok.. haven't been bloggin for a awful long time.. what can i say? life has been wonderful without this thing called "love" as we take it as.. freelancing is fun. (; so many new things happenin! so funn.. the inverts [new band ] .. me learnin how to play the guit!! ... me improving in my academic results... knowin new people[eg. rebecca! sharon!ellisa![eugene lau's stead] etc.. ] .. me watchin new movies as well as the old ones! [ unleashed , windstruck, ong back, the great challenge ] haha hmmm. oh yeah! and learn how to cope with bloody ego-istic people and petty people.. [learn how to give in] haha.. tryin la.. lol

oh yeah! next monday goin KUANTAN! wee! so funn .. will be there the whole week! today went to schoold to collect the kuantan shirts.. woo not bad sia .. our sch pritned design on TYR t shirts! haha.. N lvls and prelims coming soon already..

my ART has to be done by very very early! i dont even know when! and i'm lost in it man.. gosh i don't know what to do alr.. i don't even know what to draw already.. no more feelings for this theme called love .. zZz oh well.. jsut do for the sake of it la.. haha.. use imaginations.. haha .. and yea!

kel and i will be havin lessons on how to draw graffiti . selected by mdm FArah.. and our graffitis will be displayed @ the esPlanade! wee! x) so funn.. haha oh yeah... have been dota- ing almost everyday now! haha.. vvv fun.. ok la.. i shall end here with a SHIT YOU AND HAVE A NICE DAY! xP

will.

2005-04-24T01:27:00.000+08:00

if you ever find someone better than me. i just want you to know that what i gave u was all that i had... and what i did was the best i could do. and even if you really do find someone better . i'd still feel happy for you . cuz' i love you. but it'd be a blessin if you could like me as much as i do for you.

it doesnt really matter if you don't have anymore feelings for me.

i just want you to be happy , that's all .

-shane-

"tong hua dou shi pian ren de"

"wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi"

dan shi.

"wo yuan yi bian cheng zai tong hua li , ni ai de na ge tian shi"

everything seems different now. i don't mean anything to you anymore.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2005-04-10T17:21:00.000+08:00

damn.. hahaha i like kinda closed the window which i typed my blog entry in .. lol.. dumb me.. haha. anyway.. i'm really tired now.. just reached home not long ago from bikin.. haha. weee! i bought myself a new MAXISS tyre!.. hehe... hmm didnt really do much today... was like online , readin archie , bummin and watchin tv the entire day.. hahha really nth to do.. hehe.. i wanna go sentosa! or at least to the swimming complex.. havent had a swim for an EXTREMELY long time. haha i'm so fair now.. -.- oh yeah. and i was like super happy ystd la.. haha.. someone replied " of course la!" when i said "i miss you" to her.. er i mean someone.. haha.. hor??? the someone like.. v long time nv say that alr sia... so to know that she said it again feels my heart with warmth! awwwww! hahah! k la.. i really v tired now lol.. wanna go rest alr.. haha . actually there was a lot more i wrote abt in the previous entry i suppose to submit.. too bad i closed the window.. -.- haha dumb me.. ciao! xP anyone wanna swim tmr call me! [98314753] ahhh ! heck la.. who in the right world would read my entry and call me by noon tmr... or should i say.. later on.. lol... anyway i gonna VEGETATE now.. hehe cya! xD miss ya aney.. i meant shaney.. haha! jk.. -.- bye!

aimless bloginn | (

2005-03-21T15:49:00.000+08:00

firstly... it was rox's bday ystd and cuz i dont realy blog that often now... happy birthday rox! k anyway.. hmm.. ystd we scared rox out of her life when we appeared at her hse.. lol.. i called to bluff her say imran and i goin for the "high on life" thingy lol hmm yepp.. her parents so friendly.. haha.. friendly ppl.. lol eh then i idiot sia... suddenly go show stupid black face .. all my fault ! x ( it's like her bday lor.. then show this kind of face.. i'm a useless bum la.. hai . anyway. i just apologise.. if i really did sour anyth ystd.. it wasn't intentional.. well.. thats abt it.. and today.. was really an aimless day.. i guess some stuff are changin already... i try TOO hard i guess.. no good no good... why can't i just be myself :'( sigh.. anyway. today had to wake up early and reach sch at 730 am sharp.. i woke up atl ike 7.. then rushed thru everyth.. and took cab to sch... i was JUST in time lol. after that was our dance rehearsal at the kallang theatre .. gosh.. so big lor the place. so cool. ms intan's st' theresa students were also there.. so many ppl! imran and i were like the only guys there.. zzz . lol.. yea... and we were the first to perform.. and as usual.. after that. i slacked like a bum... the other dances were them cool too.. esp the indian dance like hip hop! woah. lol.. thats abt today la... boring day... oh and today i went searchin for "new" songs which i don't know abt.. called my friend over to help.. cool.. oh ya.. tmr the sec 3s havin camp.. so good.. 4 day camp.. i remembered mine.. so much fun.. lol oh.. today we were all addicted to the song "candy shop" by 50 cent.. or should i say ME .. zz i liek that song cum rap.. v unique. i like the way the guy swings his hands when he raps.. cool. lol ermm... thats abt today.. haiz.. lol..yet again i am ever so lonely .. "i try so hard and that's so far. in the end it doesn't even matter" dumb linkin lyrics.. lol aight... bye people.. hope life will be a more enjoyable one. =)

love taught me to lie . life taught me to die .

[that's the only part i know about in this whole damien rice "cannonball" song lol! ]

"i hear our song it keeps playin on the radio

you're on my mind"

love ya rox

2005-03-16T01:30:00.000+08:00

Ransom Letter
by Pug Jelly

so you stole my heart, and left me a ransom letter
demanding I treat you better, should I ever want it back and
now I'm all alone
dreams are all forgotten, memories all turned rotten, it's not
the same on the phone
so what's up girl?
things haven't changed a bit since we last met
I bet my bottom dollar you're the best, girl that I ever had
I never wanna lose you
so what's up?
I can't let you walk away
we planned to live forever in each others arms
so
please hold on
you know-no one will love you like i do!
and that's the thing-you know it too
I hear our song; it keeps playing on the radio
you're on my mind, I can't let you go
I'm all alone and I just want you to hold
please take my hand. never let me go
I hear our song it keeps playing on the radio
you're on my mind, I can't let you go
please make your mind up, don't see what the future holds

bored... -.-

2005-03-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

heyy.. so many things had happened the past few days which i have not been bloggin.. well.. i really don't know what to say... kinda feelind low on some occasions and stuff.. so many things happening.. i just don't know how... all i ever wanted was everything to be simple.. but i guess nothing can go the way you wanna.. you just have to play the game and observe the rules real carefully... common test comin up next week.. so freakin stressed.. so many things to do in a wk...well i guess i'm gonna write till here for now and bid farewell to the homies readin this..

i love you gal

"bottled up altogether, here i am, keepin everythin inside,even though you aint gonna see it..

i chose to do it this way as i have always told you.. that everything i said was to make you proud

.. all i ever wanted was to hold you close and chatter the words into your tender ears that you are mine girl and i love you so..

love you so "

written by sh[ane]

when i'm with you

2005-02-16T14:41:00.000+08:00

lol.. today sucked big time lor.. hai .. so low the whole day... fancy drill sucked to the core too... well nvm ..at least there was effort put in to do this drill... great job guys.. for puttin in effort.. but too bad.. we screwed up. hmm .. oh yeah.. congrats to the netball gals 'C' div.. they won AHS today with a final score of 22 - 21... cool... great effort there.. =) congrats rox.. hmm .. today's just so damn boring and short.. hai.. lol.. oh oh just now at SAFTI.. one chij[toa payoh] gal wanted to know me. but too but everything laid on deaf ears.. lol.. i didnt even respond to them when they called my name.. "shane! shane!" lol. guess there's nothing more i can write.. so yeah.. bye. love "her". ("v")

"i wanna feel the way you make me feel when i'm with you
i wanna be the only hand you need to hold on to
but everytime i call you don't have time
guess i'll never get to call you mine"

"with nothing at all

i know there's a million reasons why i shouldnt call

with nothing to say

could easily make this conversation last all day"

- simple plan

-when i'm with you

miserable

2005-02-14T23:42:00.000+08:00

living in this life.

no purpose of living

no point staying alive

and i'm alone.

God created me

with a purpose and a destiny

but i'm not fulfilling any.

i lost my sense of living

i lost my mind

i don't want any,

and to stay low.

no "rox" no life

no "you" i'll cry.

today is valentine's day

happy valentine's everyone

happy valentine's gal

2005-02-12T14:48:00.000+08:00

hah.. many things have happened this past few days which i was lazy to blog on.. haha.. generally nothing really happend.. *I think* haha.. i'm kinda paranoid ... lol.. weee! have been goin school with her in e morning for the past few days.. so fun! X D haha.. oh yeah.. i'm tryin to buck up on my studies.. gosh ! a major exam is happening this year and i've been failing every single test on the list.. how could this be???? lol dance works is also all around the corner and the songs have not been mixed yet.. gosh so much for a dance ya.. hope we win.. sigh.. I think there was lack of planning and organisation at the start of this dance thingy thats why all the problems are hittin us now.. man! haha! and the S.Y.F dance! when is ms. intan choreographin the other steps for the boys ![imran and i] we are so darn bored doin the same stuff over and over.. lol.. oh yeah.. and my bike is finally spoilt.. damn.. lol no bikin for so long already!! new year wasn't really a great one either.. didn't really get to visit places.. ): oh yeah and yesterday was ash wednesday! hehe.. i went to church with alvin, joesphine and mainey! haha .. man.. we were talkative alright.. haha.. gettin offensive remarks from older personnels like "excuse me, but the coffee shop is across the road" which i replied with my own remark "sorry, but it is closed for the day.. chinese new year celebration is goin on. thank you" haha ! that was lame.. lol then we went to shop for sean kim's bday..he's egg-day's on valentine's day.. so cool right? haha.. yeah.. erm so.. this is about it.. man must i be bored.. -.- zzz

sh[a-ne]y signin out.. *peace*

"let it be"
WHEN I FIND MYSELF IN TIMES OF TROUBLE
MOTHER MARY COMES TO ME
SPEAKING WORDS OF WISDOM
LET IT BE
WHISPER WORDS OF WISDOM
LET IT BE
AND WHEN THE BROKEN HEARTED PEOPLE
LIVING IN THE WORLD AGREE
THERE WILL BE AN ANSWER
LET IT BE
I WAKE UP TO THE SOUND OF MUSIC
MOTHER MARY COMES TO ME
SPEAKING WORDS OF WISDOM
LET IT BE
THERE WILL BE AN ANSWER
LET IT BE

2005-02-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

heloo. roxane here blogging on behalf of shane. hes too LAZY and PIGGY to blog. stupid vain pot whose pants dropped in coffee bean xD

Untitled - Simple Plan

2005-02-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

Untitled Lyrics
I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember howI can’t remember whyI’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screamingI try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a threadI wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happenedA
nd I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

BAD HAIR DAY _

2005-01-27T15:05:00.000+08:00

arhhH!!! haha... lol Mr ng sent me back home yesterday mornin cuz he said i dyed hair.. its like the sun rising that reflection loR!! ahh! aiyo.. then went back home .. Mum was drOp DeaD anGrY!!! lol.. then went to a malay barber cut some GEEKY "GOOD BOY" face look.. lol.. now i really look like a geek..!! hahha. Someone say cute worx! weee!!!! hahah.. hmm then today.. watched the 2004 [2e5 vs 2e6] lol.. thrashing man! [11 - 0] you know how bad that is.. godh i feel so bad for 2e6[2004] awwwww... never mind la.. they not really sore losers.. hehe... stupid chAncE!! that BOTAK making fun of me cuz I hav no more side burns!! ahhH!! haha.. stupid joker... lol .. hmmm today...boring day.. haha MoOd SwInGS.. e only thing that have not changed is the shyness in me.. awwww* hahaha
so shy.. i was on the third level bai chi! haha.. you didn't see me.. loL! then just now kartini took bus back with me to Simei.. lol she had to pass some danceworks registration thingy to her classmate to be faxed over to danceworks.. lol.. oooh mann i'm involved in it.. it's gonna be so much choreographing and FUN!! =D wah!! have to really manage time.. This year having 'N's ..SYF dance... DANCEworKs... Soccer interclass...MAD games... Sports day... wow! jam packed! lol.. okay! Tomorrow HAI SING CATHOLIC SCHOOL 'C' DIV NETBALL GIRLS will be up against EAST VIEW SECONDARY SCHOOL.. goOd Luck Gals! jia you! you all can do It! bE the first batCh to bring back hai sing's STandard!! woo!! Good luck roxane =)

I love you I love you I do I really do =p oh yeah.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERMAINE!!!

2005-01-25T03:10:00.000+08:00

lol.. wah.. I was like damn late for school today.. anyway.. Today's Shermaine's bday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERMAINE =D haha.. She sure get alot of pressies de.. lol haha.. hmm ok so.. wah today was a real boring day.. haha had to attend detention today .. wah at first not so bad the detention was under Mr Anthony Tan.. then.. wah!!!! Mrs Chan took over! ahh!!! It was so darn lonG! luckily I got the Bmx mag to keep me company if not X_X hahahhaa... oh yeah.. She went to dunman sec to support her seniors in netball.. HAI SING WON! THRASHED CHANGKAT CHANGI SEC .. haha but expected la.. ccss netball like *ahem* haha.. oh ya then i had ncc today took my part for command and control test.. so boring .. Part C's really very attitude .. then all like ah gua.. train shiit sia . lol . haha . First time i hear in my ncc life sia.. The PC give them 5 min to eat then after that nv come back for training.. wah!! tell u ar! really KIAM PA AR!!! hahaha.. oh ya. thats a new word i learnt today .. Kiam PA! which means in chinese "qian da" or in english " asking for a beatin" haha oh ya! then Shermaine called me when i was havin ncc lol.. She wanted to invite me go eat her bday cake.. but sadly.. I was in school ... aww. sorry gal! haha.. There's always NEXT YEAR! MUAHAHA lol.. then I actually wanted to wait for Rox then send her home or sumthing.. lol then in the end her sis came to bring her home.. aww! haha.. lol die her sis noe who am I already! haha... oh yeah then came back online after she went off just to show me lyrics of a song she heard on the radio.. so sweeeeet!! ahha.. his is the song.. here goes..

rox[ane™] [all my life] [i prayed for someone like you] [1903] [0312] [that thing you do!] says:
oh why d'you look so sad? tears are in your eyes. come on and come to me now. dont be ashamed to cry. let me see you through, cos ive seen the dark side too. when teh night falls on you. you dont know what to do. nothing you confess, could make me love you less. ill stand by you, ill stand by you, wont let nobody hurt you. ill stand by you
so if youre mad, get mad. dont hold it all inside. come on and talk to me now. hey, what d'you got to hide? i get angry too. well im a lot like you, when youre standing at the crossroads, and dont know which path to choose. let me come along, cos even if youre wrong.
ill stand by you, ill stand by you. wont let nobody hurt you. ill stand by you. take me in, into your darkest hour. and ill never desert you. ill stand by you and when, when the night falls on you baby. youre feeling all alone. you wont be on your own. ill stand by you, ill stand by you, wont let nobody hurt you. ill stand by you, take me in, into your darkest hour. and ill never desert you. ill stand by you. ill stand by you. wont let nobody hurt you, ill stand by you. wont let nobody hurt you. ill stand by you

weeeeeeeeeee~~~

2005-01-24T12:20:00.000+08:00

haha.. o0h my first time shifting to blogspot. lol last time I was bloggin at http://infernal-luv.diaryland.com haha.. when I finally thought of changin to this instead.. so cool~ haha.. erm so.. ya..

So long and farewell!

Oh baby!

Eunice loves shane!

heartaches and denials

i love ya shaneeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D

<3

<3

YOYOYOYOYO. from elisha the great. :)

pulling stunts no.1

what on earth am i here for?

HELLO WEE IN

CHAPTER no. _

...

will.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

aimless bloginn | (

when i'm with you

miserable

Untitled - Simple Plan

BAD HAIR DAY *_*

I love you I love you I do I really do =p oh yeah.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERMAINE!!!

weeeeeeeeeee~~~

BAD HAIR DAY _